Friends or Boyfriend

Boyfriend or friend? special or not? how ni??? confuse.... someone want to know you.... u just break out with our bf... hurmmmm..... i can't handle it rite now... for me, better just be friend... but does he care about that? i m now can't take any relationship seriously, i wanna play.. play with feeling because i don't have feeling rite now.. i lost it... and now, i can't find it... where? where is my feeling? please just be a friend with me? if u wanna be my bf, just take it and if anything happen, i don't guarantee it... hahahaha *evil laugh.... jahatnya la bila wat mcm tu pada laki... entah, cukup la... dah xnak pikir ape2... nk fokus pd belajar pun susah... please r, knape chemistry, physics and calculus sem ni susah??? nk score pun susah.... markah pun dpt takat2 nyawa ikan je... hurmmmm hopefully aku lulus la sem ni.... lulus pun dah cukup bgku... aku dah xdop semangat ni nk study... cukup2 la utk thun ni(dah nk abis thun 2010 dah) tgal 4 ari je ag.... nk cuti..... nak cuti, nk kelik derak drumoh.... nk balik tane tebaka.... nk main dgn tanah, nk jiruh.... nk main air.... xse doh ni belaja.... xmasuk doh ni... nk kelik.....

1st LoVe

dont know why tonite i feel so sad.. i miss my bf.. family of coz la miss them every time... hari ni saya dapat tau yg rupe2nya remove me as friend.. why?? i still love him.. still can't forget him.. he is my 1st love.. i try to call him and text him, but no respond at all... so, how now? i know that i make mistake when i ask he to stay away from me.. but just for a while because when he beside me, aku jadi bergantung pada dia, mengadu pd dia.. lepas stress pun pd dia.. aku hanya nk elakkan beban aku pada dia by doing that... but what i got here and now, he already leaving me far far away from him and i can't catch him back... what i need to do now? forget him? that's what i m trying to do now.. but its too hard... i keeping remember him from time to time... i really "sayang"kan dia... u think can i get him back? i had told him that i wanna him back... but he not answer me and just keep silent... tp walaupun aku sedih, aku tetap kna teruskan hidup aku ni... aku xboleh terus sedih.. aku kna belajar. help my family 1st,... God please help me to get through all this feeling... just keep me on yours straight path... Amiinn..... give me strength....

Again and Again - 2pm

Penangan White Coffee

Do you like to drink white coffee?? now its turns to me... before this i like oat drink, but when i try white coffee, its make me wanna it more n more from day to day... i already know that its not really good for healthy, but i cant stop drinking it.. now, i really love it.. Ipoh's cafe tu beb... i m not believe that ipoh made coffee by themselves... setanding dgn nestle gak la kiranya... hehehe

Need You NoW

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor

Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door

Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now

today, what i need now?? waaa a lot of thing i need... this song? emm like i being dump from bf... pergghhhh yeah, something i feel like that of way.. hoping u can be with me along the day, smile with me, make me laugh...but its not time yet.. i need to study 1st, then?? married... hahaha u think wat?? crazy? no... its normal for a girl... wanna being love by someone special... oohhhh its so romantic... kinda wanna now... hehehe gatal... focus2x... exam coming soon miera... just finished ur study for 4 years more... and then get a job... help ur family, make my parents proud of me.. and then ask my father to find a husband for me... u think its ok or not? or i need to find by myself? hahahaha.... tunggu jodoh jela... hahahha wat i talking about now?? hahhaa sory la lau org cakap aku merapu bukan2... yela, my blog is the place for me to express my brutal crazy buusssiee feeling... hahaha :p

kepenatan

Starting today, a lot of thing i need to do... doing revision, study lecture note.. emmm so many thing until i got confuse which one i need to focus 1st... oohhh shit.... u know, i need to face 3 quizzes and 1 test for this coming week and the other week i have 2 test for physics and chemistry... both are very difficult.. i hope i still can get good result for all the subject that i take.. busy day... yesterday, i m struggle to finished my lab physics report and tonite my calculus assignment and tomorrow my chemistry lab report and study for the coming test.... waaaaa i want to sleep.... this is my video.... hope u all like it... its all about my effort k... to convert from powerpoint to video format... yaaahhhh i success....

Ketenangan Terganggu

xtau la kenape tibe2 je rasa nk tulis blog ni... aku rasa sedih la... mcm bad mood.. xtau nk lepas mcmana... maybe sbb dah xde pakwe susah skit nk luah ke org lain.. lau ada pakwe biasanya pakwe la jadi mangsa tempat luahan perasaaan... pg tadi rasa ok je... tp maghrib2 gini, emo ku menjelang tibe... mahu balik ke kampung kah??? ye... nk balik umah... mungkin tu salah satu sbbnye kot... biasala... kadang2 datang jgak penyakit homesick ku ini.... dan sekarang tiada orag yang mahu membangkitkan semangatku supaya bersabar dan study.. aku perlu berdikari skrg ni... Air mata jatuh berderai mengingatkan kampung halaman dengan adik2 tersayang.. Dengan wajah tua ayah, walaupun sikapku yang keras tp deep in my heart, i really love them... and adakah aku sedih ni juga disebabkan aku kehilangan orang yang aku sayang?? aku dah janji pada diriku, aku mahu cube berdikari without anyone help.. but why this happen to me? why i always become sad at this time? i cant concentrate to my study and next 2 week, i'll have exam... i m very afraid... i m very hope that, after i write this blog, perasaanku akan reda...

please tolongla paham hatiku untuk kebaikan tuanmu jgk...

Awal Muharam ~Maal Hijrah~

salam to all muslim..

today i would like to state here that, we are celebrating happy new year to all muslim in the world.. for this new year, i think i need to change myself to become a good muslim... huhhh u know that in my life, i m very interested to become close to our CREATOR.. hati akan menjadi tenang, tanpa perasaan yang boleh menjejaskan iman... Saya belajar di U ni banyak halangan dan dugaan, pelbagai yang perlu saya tempuh dan ini sangat berbeza dengan kehidupan di sekolah dulu... Dulu, tiap kali maghrib pergi ke masjid, tp sekarang x lagi,... semua we need to do by own.. if u want to go to mosque, just do it.. if u dont want to pray, let it be.. no one will angry at u or ask u why u dont want to do.. so, sempena awal muharam or we say as happy new year to umat Islam, saya mahu pastikan diri saya jauh dr melakukan perkara yang dimurkai ALLAH SWT dan mencuba untuk mendekatkan diri dgn-NYA..

Terdapat banyak cara yang kita boleh lakukan, berpuasa pada hari Isnin and Khamis, membaca Al-Quran after solat, membaca Al-Mathurat after solat Subuh and Asar... A lot we can do for our soul feed... Insyallah i'll do it... Amin....

interest

sory guys... long time not writing anything in my blog... actually i dont know what should i share here... bcoz u know that my blog not very nice... so tonite, i m in good mood... so, i renovate my blog. change background and bla bla bla... now, it look good... ok, i'll start writing again ok... but for tonite, i dont think so i in good mood to share something with anyone....